Growing Up

OH BOY…

I never thought telling my story would be that hard. LOL
I have been writing, deleting, rewriting over & over now. UFFFFF

Anyway, I thought of starting with quick facts:

Born in 1975, moved to KSA (Saudi Arabia) with family in 1979, to live in the Holy City of Medina.
Grown in a very religious family, grandfather was a Sheikh & Islamic activist, not a terrorist btw for those of you who might think wrongfully that all Muslim activists are terrorists, but he was strict enough.

Puberty: I remember starting getting all the puberty signs at the age of 12 years old. Poor me :( I got my first "public" hard on at 13, when I saw a gorgeous teacher; he was 25, so who can blame me? huh?

Denial: We've all gone through that phase, haven't we? Well, for me it was between the age of 14 till 18.

Acceptance: Luckily for me, I enrolled in Med School, always been a bright student. (HEY, I'm a Taurus, I HAVE to brag a little… LOL)
There, I heard of that "new", back then, study about being "born gay". I had to do my research, then studied Muslim and Christians Scripts, to know where religions stand from one's sexual identity. Never been lucky with the Christian ones, but thanks to my grandfather's & father's reputations, I was able to have access to many rare Muslim books. After almost 13 months, I came to the conclusion that Islam agrees with that study, but never state a clear statement about gay sexual activities, or whether homosexuals are accepted in "the Kingdom of Heaven" per say.
For those who are wondering about Lut story in the Quran, the whole concept is misunderstood & misinterpreted, they were not punished for being homosexuals as the flow of the story events tells. Anyway, I have mentioned a summarized conclusion in my other blog. (click here)
So, I did accept the fact that I'm gay at a young age; I was 19 & a few months, nevertheless I had to prove it to myself, so (hold your breath guys) I had sex with a woman (ewwwwww, I know), & actually maintained a relationship with her for over 10 months. (HOW DISGUSTING!!!) I'm still friends with her till now, what can I do? I'm adorable. (The Taurus thing kicks again :P)
Anyway, one day I decided enough is enough, I'm ready to act upon my sexual desires & identity.

SO, no major awwww/oh poor you/drama stories there. SORRY to disappoint you.
BUT I have to mention a few harassments, not sexual ones; THANK GOD, but they caused quite a disturbance in my relationship with my father back then. We got along well afterwards. phew!!!...
I'd also witnessed only one disturbing event regarding homosexuality; a Pakistani guy being killed for being gay in KSA, I was 15 back then. But other than that, I never had any disturbing event till I became 21.

Be patient we'll get there… At this point I'm still 20. (oh I WISH!!!)